the cool kids

i don’t know if anyone else has these days but i certainly do. i have days when i wish i was not like i am. now i don’t mean in some amazingly spiritual way when you wish you were more like Jesus, everyday should be that day, right? i am talking about the things i think are cool, exciting, fun, interesting. i look at people who do the things i want to do and wish i was them. then when i try to do them and just feel like an idiot because i don’t do them well or i’m just damn bad at them. then i’m stuck with just boring old leslie. she doesn’t have an amazing potted garden, or a great ability to catch a frisbee, or only eat organic fair trade food, play an instrument, take beautiful pictures, or rock climb. she just goes to school, cooks every now and then, and reads books and most of the time doesn’t even finish them. today is a day that i wish i was really good at something cool.

p.s. this wasn’t bait for you to tell me i’m cool. i just wish i cooler.